Career. It’s a word that seems to pop up everywhere.

I’ve no problem with deciding my major (and minors – yes plural) for college. But I’ve no idea what I’m going to do with a liberal arts degree. It’s not like there’s a ton of jobs for the dreamers and thinkers.

Quite frankly, I have absolutely zip idea about what I want to do with my life when I reach the point where I must decide that.

I know I want to travel and write great books, as Jo March once said. But that’s not exactly concrete. I truly have no desire for some ambitious career. I want to make people feel and see and understand the world in a way that’s deeper. I want to point people to Jesus.

I’ve always known I want to be a writer.

There’s something else I’ve always wanted to be too. Something that makes amazing use of that desire to share the deep.

As simple as it may sound, there is no greater desire in my life than to one day be a wife and a mother.

And as much as I value and love education, no degree can give you that.

It’s not that degrees and careers are wrong, God uses those as well, but it seems we often forget what is truly important when our focus is on our education and our degree.

What I don’t understand is why society does not place greater value on this calling from God. There is nothing nobler that I can think of than to love, care, and nurture others. Nothing grander than being fully loved, understood, and supported by another individual.


How can a career, which often puts infasis on ourselves rather than on others, be better than a deep abiding love between two people? Or greater than raising up little indiviuals?


I don’t know really how to put it into words, but sometimes I wish for that deep kind of love and understanding so much that it genuninely hurts. It’s not a burning. Rather it’s like a rope has been tied around my soul and it’s pulling me towards all that I want, but my feet are nailed to the floor beneth me.

There is absolutely nothing more that I want in this life than to be fully known and loved and in return to give that love back. Nothing more.

Until that day comes, and after it comes, I will continue to pursue Christ. All my soul desires and needs is found in Him.

(All images from Pinterest.)

7 responses to “Ambitions”

  1. Lissa Avatar

    Such a beautiful post, my souls has that longing too, it’s hard but God is so good.

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    1. thebookshopbarista Avatar

      Yes God is good, even when it seems so so far away

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  2. Ann Without an E Avatar

    Wow. You put it in to word! I would never know how to put that longing into words!
    Throughout growing up everyone’s always asked me “what do you want to do when you grow up?” And I would almost always reply “A mommy!”
    It’s an amazing calling. To raise the next generation! To teach them to love our Creator!
    Thank you so much for the absolutely wonderful post! It’s encouraging to see that other people share my same desires!

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    1. thebookshopbarista Avatar

      Thank you! And yes! That’s been my answer since I was little too. How sweet!
      Definitely, it’s such an amazing privilege that parents have. Nothing is greater than spreading the love of Jesus.
      No thank you! It was so encouraging to read your comment and know that I’m not alone in this desire. And you’re not either. 😊

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  3. Brianna Faith Avatar

    I love this! And I couldn’t agree more! I’ve felt pressured to go to college and get some kind of degree, (and I still haven’t decided if that’s something I want to do) While that’s not a bad thing, what I really want is to be a mom someday, spend the days with my kids raising them and teaching them to follow God and walk in His ways. I feel like a lot of people don’t put a lot of value in that anymore… We all want to be something “more” perhaps doctors or lawyers seeking to change the world for good. But I think raising a godly family is really where we begin to see those changes, it’s the foundation, where it all starts. I want to be there when my children take their first steps, I want to celebrate all their accomplishments with them, I don’t want to miss out on any of those precious moments for the sake of a job…
    Lovely post, as always!

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    1. thebookshopbarista Avatar

      Yes yes yes. It’s one of those things that society really doesn’t place much value on anymore, but it’s so beautiful. To share God’s love in that kind of way- there’s nothing like that of a family. Like you said it’s the foundation of everything else.
      Thank you!

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  4. Susann Graber Avatar
    Susann Graber

    Always remember there are many seasons in a woman’s life. I think many more than that which men experience. It’s wonderful to know that the Lord will be in each of them. He can use you for His glory and to nurture and show His glory in each. We to be patient and wait and stay vigilant to see how He wants to use us.

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