Career. It’s a word that seems to pop up everywhere.
I’ve no problem with deciding my major (and minors – yes plural) for college. But I’ve no idea what I’m going to do with a liberal arts degree. It’s not like there’s a ton of jobs for the dreamers and thinkers.
Quite frankly, I have absolutely zip idea about what I want to do with my life when I reach the point where I must decide that.
I know I want to travel and write great books, as Jo March once said. But that’s not exactly concrete. I truly have no desire for some ambitious career. I want to make people feel and see and understand the world in a way that’s deeper. I want to point people to Jesus.
I’ve always known I want to be a writer.
There’s something else I’ve always wanted to be too. Something that makes amazing use of that desire to share the deep.
As simple as it may sound, there is no greater desire in my life than to one day be a wife and a mother.
And as much as I value and love education, no degree can give you that.
It’s not that degrees and careers are wrong, God uses those as well, but it seems we often forget what is truly important when our focus is on our education and our degree.
What I don’t understand is why society does not place greater value on this calling from God. There is nothing nobler that I can think of than to love, care, and nurture others. Nothing grander than being fully loved, understood, and supported by another individual.
How can a career, which often puts infasis on ourselves rather than on others, be better than a deep abiding love between two people? Or greater than raising up little indiviuals?
I don’t know really how to put it into words, but sometimes I wish for that deep kind of love and understanding so much that it genuninely hurts. It’s not a burning. Rather it’s like a rope has been tied around my soul and it’s pulling me towards all that I want, but my feet are nailed to the floor beneth me.
There is absolutely nothing more that I want in this life than to be fully known and loved and in return to give that love back. Nothing more.
Until that day comes, and after it comes, I will continue to pursue Christ. All my soul desires and needs is found in Him.
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